(Note: This was originally posted on July 31, 2006. In light of recent developments regarding Major League Baseball, I decided to post this again, as it expresses my feelings perhaps even stronger now than when I originally wrote it. And seems to be just as pertinent. What follows is the entire body of the original post. Thank you for tolerating a bit of old prose.)

It was the definition of “love at first sight.” The first time I got involved with her, I was hooked. I loved everything about her. The excitement, the heartbreak, the little intricacies both on the surface and below it. I couldn’t get enough. I wanted to be around her all the time. She only came around for a few months every summer before the seasonal change in a small town in North Dakota would take her away for me, leaving other activities and challenges that would present themselves but never proved to be quite as interesting. It was an undying love that never got old or stale.

 Things went incredibly well for a long time. I was in heaven. Until one summer day in ’81. I had feared it for several weeks, and my fear came to fruition. She left me. Baseball left me for the first time. I was crushed and no idea how to handle it. I was lost without her, but, luckily for me, she decided to come back a short time later. Obviously, I welcomed her back with open arms, and figured the relationship was going to be grand once again. It was a given it would last forever.

 It was a great time for several years. Perhaps not as memorable as the 1970s, but great nonetheless. I got to see my Dodgers beat the hated Yanks later in ‘81, a fabulous year by the Tigers in ’84-a year that also featured one of the rare Cub playoff appearances. Naturally they had a 2-1 lead in the best of five versus the Padres and lost. In ’85, the first year that the league championship series went to seven games instead of five, I got to see the Royals come back from a 3-1 deficit. Not once, but twice. First against the hard-luck Toronto Blue Jays, then over the Cardinals in the World Series. Of course everyone remembers the Red Sox-Mets series in ’86, which was preceded by an incredible ALCS in which the Red Sox prevailed over the Angels after Boston was down to their last strike and trailed three games to one. (See also my earlier posts regarding Donnie Moore, Bill Buckner, etc., from 7/02, and "Do You Remember . . ." from 5/17).

The Twins, my first favorite team growing up as a child in North Dakota, broke through and won in 1987, which amazed us all.  Of course ’88 brought Orel Herschiser’s record-breaking scoreless inning streak, and later Kirk Gibson’s home run (“I do not believe what I just saw!”) against the A’s. I remember it like it was yesterday.

 She left me again in 1989. Naturally, as any man would with his first love, I again took her back. She got what she had coming to her that same year, though. Even though the A’s would rebound from their ’88 loss, sweeping the Giants in a series that was interrupted by an earthquake, it was about as anti-climactic as could be. 

 As the spring of 1990 arrived, I was over our last break-up. And to loosely paraphrase a well known quote, sports makes for strange bedfellows, which brings me to the Cincinnati Reds. They got off to a great start in ‘90, like the Tigers in ’84, and wound up sweeping the A’s in the World Series. Being a Dodger fan, I didn’t care too much for the Reds’ success, so I was rooting for the A’s in the Series, the same team I had rooted against the previous two years. Naturally, since the A’s had won handily the year before, I figured the Reds were doomed. And of course the Reds won four straight. Ah, her beauty shone through once again. I both loved her and hated her (not really) at the same time. Oh well. I guess you must take the bad with the good. But even though the Reds won the World Series, life was, and had been, very good. I had seen some of the best baseball of my life in the years following the ’81 strike. I couldn’t have been happier, all things considered. The relationship between she and I was absolutely wonderful. The Twins won again in ’91, followed by the Blue Jays winning back-to-back titles.

 For some reason when I was a kid, maybe it was the cool uniforms and the outstanding batting helmet, or the underrated talent they had like Tim Raines and Andre Dawson in the early ‘80s, I had taken a serious liking to the Expos. Or maybe it was because I was one of the few baseball fans who got to see a lot of them. With the advent of cable TV in the late 1970s, we had a whopping 13 channels, including two Canadian channels. I became familiar with Raines and Dawson as well as Tim Wallach, Steve Rodgers, Gary Carter, and so many other Expos who didn’t get their due because fans just simply didn’t get to see them very often. Granted, the ’94 Expos didn’t have the same team I had watched growing up, but the soft spot for them was still there. I thought of how great it would be for the franchise and the city of Montreal to finally realize a championship. And how great it would be for major league baseball. And as a baseball fan first and foremost, how great it would be for me to see it. Or perhaps the Cleveland Indians or the Chicago White Sox, neither of whom had won a World Series since well before I was born. At any rate, the ’94 post-season would no doubt prove to be interesting, since MLB had broken each league into three divisions for that season, and with a wild-card team now qualifying, the playoffs would take on a whole new look. I anticipated it greatly, even though she told me she might not stick around to see it through. I didn't want to believe it. Couldn't believe it. But she ultimately left me again, one last time. Before I got to see the Expos, Indians, White Sox, or anybody else compete in that ’94 post-season. After much thought and reflection, I came to the conclusion that I was not going to go through the pain of her leaving any more. I told her not to bother coming back. Sure, she tried, but I held firm. With a stiff upper lip, I said no. No more. 

 Major League Baseball has brought a lot of problems on itself in recent history. A. Bartlett Giamatti, a true baseball man, was hired as commissioner in September of 1988. He died just under a year later. Giamatti wrote in “The Green Fields of the Mind,” regarding baseball:

“It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart. The game begins in the spring, when everything else begins again, and it blossoms in the summer, filling the afternoons and evenings, and then as soon as the chill rains come, it stops and leaves you to face the fall alone. You count on it, rely on it to buffer the passage of time, to keep the memory of sunshine and high skies alive, and then just when the days are all twilight, when you need it most, it stops.”

  The owners wanted Faye Vincent, another baseball man who replaced Bart Giamatti after his sudden death, out as commissioner in favor of one of their own. They got it. Under pressure-one might even say duress-Vincent resigned in September of 1992. (Looking back, many of the owners at the time wouldn’t have had a clue on how to deal with Bowie Kuhn, who made decisions, usually prudent ones, based on the ‘best interests of baseball,’ and was seldom questioned. But then, times change. Boy, do times change.) In the Selig regime we have had rampant steroid use, a tied All-Star Game, the ingenious decision that the All-Star game winner would decide home-field advantage in the World Series, (a poor attempt to make the All-Star game mean more than it should, and an even poorer attempt to divert the attention away from Selig’s major snafu to call the game after nine innings when it was tied), and a major labor roadblock during the 1994 season. Which, of course, meant that I didn’t get to see it to fruition. Not that the owners were the only ones at fault. There was and is more than enough blame to go around for the debacle of the 1994 Major League Baseball season. Both the owners and the players had serious delusions of grandeur in thinking they were bigger than the game. They weren’t. But they did prove they were too big for me.

 Without looking it up, and aside from 2001, I couldn’t tell you who won the World Series in any given year since then, though I do know a lot was made of the Yankees playing the Mets one year. I did watch most of the 2001 Series, in part because of the emotions of 9/11 being fresh in everyone’s mind and in part because the local Diamondbacks were involved, and who knows if or when I’ll ever see that again. Other than that, I have not watched one major league game. I still watch baseball and love the game. But now it’s the Arizona State Sun Devils or an occasional minor league game. And every game I do watch, without fail, the song from “A League of Their Own” goes through my mind. This used to be my playground. Because for me, as a kid, it really was. And I can’t help but get choked up. The pain that she caused by leaving me three times is great. But nothing in comparison to the pain I would experience if I allowed it to happen again.

Thanks for taking the time to read.

 “This Used To Be My Playground,” from the movie “A League Of Their Own.”  Sung by Madonna. Written by Madonna and Shep Pettibone. Sire Records

Let's get something straight here, folks. For those who don't remember, Mr. Bud Selig was in command during the '94 strike, the subsuquent home run explosion of Mark McGwire and Sammy Sosa in '98, and everything since. Blame Barry if you must, but the fact of the matter is that Selig and his cronies allowed all of this to go on. And in a fitting display, Selig had his hands in his pockets when Bonds hit #755. No one should be surprised by this. It's the same place his hands were when all of this started. Same s***, different year.

Glad you a-holes ran Faye Vincent out of office.

How does that egg taste, Bud? Get used to it. There's lots more where that came from.

Although I have heard all I want to regarding Barry Bonds in the past year, I couldn't help but mull over the ramifications of the latest chapter in the saga. As we are all aware of by now, Game Of Shadows authors Lance Williams and Mark Fainaru-Wada were sentenced to serve some time behind bars for not revealing their sources. I applaud them. Any reporter worth his/her salt should do the same in order to maintain credibility. I also have a hard time condemning the source of the information for leaking it to the reporters, though common sense would say that it was not right to do so. But whether the judicial system is flawed or not for imposing this penalty, the source was at fault, or whether the authors handled their situation correctly is not the point of this writing. But it now appears obvious to me that Barry Bonds did in fact use steroids. Not that I needed any further proof in my own mind, but if the facts in Game Of Shadows were erroneous, I find it hard to believe the government would have pursued this matter as fervently as they did. In other words, if the information leaked was not, in fact, what was disclosed in the grand jury hearings and subsequently wound up in the book, the government would not have much of a case against the "leaker" or the authors, would they? It appears to me that the book was indeed factual and was based on actual grand jury testimony, which is no doubt what got the ire of the feds up when the information surfaced in the book. That, and the fact that perhaps they deemed this to be getting in the way of their "investigation," which as we all know is moving along at a record pace.

That sound you just heard was another egg breaking on the face of Major League Baseball. Can I get a towel, please? Make that lots of 'em!

Thanks for taking the time to read.

It was the definition of “love at first sight.” The first time I got involved with her, I was hooked. I loved everything about her. The excitement, the heartbreak, the little intricacies both on the surface and below it. I couldn’t get enough. I wanted to be around her all the time. She only came around for a few months every summer before the seasonal change in a small town in North Dakota would take her away for me, leaving other activities and challenges that would present themselves but never proved to be quite as interesting. It was an undying love that never got old or stale.

 Things went incredibly well for a long time. I was in heaven. Until one summer day in ’81. I had feared it for several weeks, and my fear came to fruition. She left me. Baseball left me for the first time. I was crushed and no idea how to handle it. I was lost without her, but, luckily for me, she decided to come back a short time later. Obviously, I welcomed her back with open arms, and figured the relationship was going to be grand once again. It was a given it would last forever.

 It was a great time for several years. Perhaps not as memorable as the 1970s, but great nonetheless. I got to see my Dodgers beat the hated Yanks later in ‘81, a fabulous year by the Tigers in ’84-a year that also featured one of the rare Cub playoff appearances. Naturally they had a 2-1 lead in the best of five versus the Padres and lost. In ’85, the first year that the league championship series went to seven games instead of five, I got to see the Royals come back from a 3-1 deficit. Not once, but twice. First against the hard-luck Toronto Blue Jays, then over the Cardinals in the World Series. Of course everyone remembers the Red Sox-Mets series in ’86, which was preceded by an incredible ALCS in which the Red Sox prevailed over the Angels after Boston was down to their last strike and trailed three games to one. (See also my earlier posts regarding Donnie Moore, Bill Buckner, etc., from 7/02, and "Do You Remember . . ." from 5/17).

The Twins, my first favorite team growing up as a child in North Dakota, broke through and won in 1987, which amazed us all.  Of course ’88 brought Orel Herschiser’s record-breaking scoreless inning streak, and later Kirk Gibson’s home run (“I do not believe what I just saw!”) against the A’s. I remember it like it was yesterday.

 She left me again in 1989. Naturally, as any man would with his first love, I again took her back. She got what she had coming to her that same year, though. Even though the A’s would rebound from their ’88 loss, sweeping the Giants in a series that was interrupted by an earthquake, it was about as anti-climactic as could be. 

 As the spring of 1990 arrived, I was over our last break-up. And to loosely paraphrase a well known quote, sports makes for strange bedfellows, which brings me to the Cincinnati Reds. They got off to a great start in ‘90, like the Tigers in ’84, and wound up sweeping the A’s in the World Series. Being a Dodger fan, I didn’t care too much for the Reds’ success, so I was rooting for the A’s in the Series, the same team I had rooted against the previous two years. Naturally, since the A’s had won handily the year before, I figured the Reds were doomed. And of course the Reds won four straight. Ah, her beauty shone through once again. I both loved her and hated her (not really) at the same time. Oh well. I guess you must take the bad with the good. But even though the Reds won the World Series, life was, and had been, very good. I had seen some of the best baseball of my life in the years following the ’81 strike. I couldn’t have been happier, all things considered. The relationship between she and I was absolutely wonderful. The Twins won again in ’91, followed by the Blue Jays winning back-to-back titles.

 For some reason when I was a kid, maybe it was the cool uniforms and the outstanding batting helmet, or the underrated talent they had like Tim Raines and Andre Dawson in the early ‘80s, I had taken a serious liking to the Expos. Or maybe it was because I was one of the few baseball fans who got to see a lot of them. With the advent of cable TV in the late 1970s, we had a whopping 13 channels, including two Canadian channels. I became familiar with Raines and Dawson as well as Tim Wallach, Steve Rodgers, Gary Carter, and so many other Expos who didn’t get their due because fans just simply didn’t get to see them very often. Granted, the ’94 Expos didn’t have the same team I had watched growing up, but the soft spot for them was still there. I thought of how great it would be for the franchise and the city of Montreal to finally realize a championship. And how great it would be for major league baseball. And as a baseball fan first and foremost, how great it would be for me to see it. Or perhaps the Cleveland Indians or the Chicago White Sox, neither of whom had won a World Series since well before I was born. At any rate, the ’94 post-season would no doubt prove to be interesting, since MLB had broken each league into three divisions for that season, and with a wild-card team now qualifying, the playoffs would take on a whole new look. I anticipated it greatly, even though she told me she might not stick around to see it through. I didn't want to believe it. Couldn't believe it. But she ultimately left me again, one last time. Before I got to see the Expos, Indians, White Sox, or anybody else compete in that ’94 post-season. After much thought and reflection, I came to the conclusion that I was not going to go through the pain of her leaving any more. I told her not to bother coming back. Sure, she tried, but I held firm. With a stiff upper lip, I said no. No more. 

 Major League Baseball has brought a lot of problems on itself in recent history. A. Bartlett Giamatti, a true baseball man, was hired as commissioner in September of 1988. He died just under a year later. Giamatti wrote in “The Green Fields of the Mind,” regarding baseball:

“It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart. The game begins in the spring, when everything else begins again, and it blossoms in the summer, filling the afternoons and evenings, and then as soon as the chill rains come, it stops and leaves you to face the fall alone. You count on it, rely on it to buffer the passage of time, to keep the memory of sunshine and high skies alive, and then just when the days are all twilight, when you need it most, it stops.”

  The owners wanted Faye Vincent, another baseball man who replaced Bart Giamatti after his sudden death, out as commissioner in favor of one of their own. They got it. Under pressure-one might even say duress-Vincent resigned in September of 1992. (Looking back, many of the owners at the time wouldn’t have had a clue on how to deal with Bowie Kuhn, who made decisions, usually prudent ones, based on the ‘best interests of baseball,’ and was seldom questioned. But then, times change. Boy, do times change.) In the Selig regime we have had rampant steroid use, a tied All-Star Game, the ingenious decision that the All-Star game winner would decide home-field advantage in the World Series, (a poor attempt to make the All-Star game mean more than it should, and an even poorer attempt to divert the attention away from Selig’s major snafu to call the game after nine innings when it was tied), and a major labor roadblock during the 1994 season. Which, of course, meant that I didn’t get to see it to fruition. Not that the owners were the only ones at fault. There was and is more than enough blame to go around for the debacle of the 1994 Major League Baseball season. Both the owners and the players had serious delusions of grandeur in thinking they were bigger than the game. They weren’t. But they did prove they were too big for me.

 Without looking it up, and aside from 2001, I couldn’t tell you who won the World Series in any given year since then, though I do know a lot was made of the Yankees playing the Mets one year. I did watch most of the 2001 Series, in part because of the emotions of 9/11 being fresh in everyone’s mind and in part because the local Diamondbacks were involved, and who knows if or when I’ll ever see that again. Other than that, I have not watched one major league game. I still watch baseball and love the game. But now it’s the Arizona State Sun Devils or an occasional minor league game. And every game I do watch, without fail, the song from “A League of Their Own” goes through my mind. This used to be my playground. Because for me, as a kid, it really was. And I can’t help but get choked up. The pain that she caused by leaving me three times is great. But nothing in comparison to the pain I would experience if I allowed it to happen again.

Thanks for taking the time to read.

 “This Used To Be My Playground,” from the movie “A League Of Their Own.”  Sung by Madonna. Written by Madonna and Shep Pettibone. Sire Records. 

So Bonds has finally tied Babe. It was inevitable that someone would eventually, I suppose. But Bonds has done so in part with the help of performance enhancing substances. I don't think that can be denied. Say it's alleged, say it hasn't been proven, say whatever you want in Barry's defense. But the cold, hard truth is this: Bonds has not brought any legal action against the writers of the book detailing his steroid use. Nor has anyone who Jose Canseco named in his book. Any person whose name was associated with something like that and are innocent would be suing like there's no tomorrow. Face it. And since he did admit to using the 'clear' and the 'cream' in grand jury testimony, I don't think there's any doubting the fact.

Having said that, the Bonds steroid issue is not what I meant to address here. Rather, records were made to be broken. At the same time, I've always been of the belief that you can't compare athletes or teams from different eras. Instead, one has to look at what an athlete or team did compared to their contemporaries. This blog addresses this subject-Bonds is nowhere near the player Ruth was. Ruth was not only a stellar pitcher before he was moved to the outfield to get his bat in the lineup every day, but he didn't just break records. He destroyed them, annihilated them. Bonds numbers came in an era when home runs were much more commonplace than they were when Ruth played. I believe the single season home run record when Ruth came along was less than 15. He hit 60. The career HR mark? Around 100. Ruth is in a select group of athletes who redefined the game they played. (Incidentally, Ruth's lifetime batting average was .342. A slugger, yes, but perhaps the greatest offensive machine the game has known.) Players who did something so far above and beyond what had been done to that point that it was staggering. Wayne Gretzky, Wilt Chamberlain, and Jim Brown, among others (possibly) also fall into this category.

Barry can have his record. I frankly don't care. Baseball lost me as a passionate fan during their last strike in '94. I went from being a baseball junkie to one who was too hurt for the last time by what the owners and players had done to the game to feel any real attachment to it.

Hopefully all of this controversy regarding Bonds will play itself out and the truth will be known. But MLB is responsible for this whole mess, and now they are reaping what they have sown.

Thanks for taking the time to read.