So here I am, stuck home today recovering from the aftermath of a migraine headache the size of Ruben Droughns, and about as equally effective. It's funny, because after such a mauling of the brain, basic processes come back slowly. Bits of reality you once thought simple now seem so far away, and you can't help but wonder "How did this come to be?"

The first example is here, in this blogging community. Why, oh why, is it so hard to have blogs properly placed? I imagine people tag their amazing kick boxing and NASCAR blogs as NFL specific because let's face it... no one really cares about the other sports. We get insightful blogs that are actually about football buried beneath the rubbish of men's beach volleyball. Seriously folks, it's rude.

But it could be worse.

You see, I have also come to realize that I have become delussional myself. After watching football most my life, after several successful seasons in fantasy football... I have managed to convince myself that I am an expert. Some people might have glimpsed a recent spat I had with another blogger about Wes Welker. I like him on the Pats, the other gentleman didn't. So we went round and around. He found stats, I glanced over them... I spent time thinking about what I saw of him on the Dolphin's last year, and wondered why Joey Harrington wasn't a better NFL QB (I was at University of Oregon during his junior year). Anyway, we both had our points, but we sounded so high and mighty. I'll admit, he made a better arguement than me... but does it matter? What do either of us gain from it? I can't imagine looking this guy up if Wes is a top 15 WR this year to say "I told you so". The truth is, this is like the adult world of make believe, where we watch, we make claims, and like some strange role playing game, we shout who is better. But let's face it. The NFL doesn't need our help in making calls. They all have their reasons, and we just witness the results. Whoo hoo.

Next up, I saw several articles this week about Pacman appealing his suspension and Ricky Williams testing positive for weed again. I wrote one of my first blogs on how a company shouldn't have the right to make moral judgements on it's employees, and instead, that the code of conduct should enable people to just get fired, not suspended. I still feel that if someone has violated a law, a fair and balanced legal system should decide punishment. An employer should just decide i####uy works there or not. I still like this idea, however, I have also come to the thought that players are idiots. I mean, Pacman's appeal was "Other people did it too..." Really? That's all your lawyers got? I had to start thinking more creatively in grade school. I really hope Godell comes back with "Well, if all the other players jumped of a bridge, would you do it ten times?" And Ricky... please... STOP GIVING YOGA A BAD NAME. IT'S JUST WEED MAN!!! You're instant reaction of "I'm a yoga master now" returns that old school flare that meditative arts are for hippie burn outs. STOP IT.

Finally, as I say in every blog, I love my Broncs. I do. Which is why I think Fantasy Football has ruined me. You see, it forced me to pay more attention to the larger league, and God help me... I'm hoping the... Raiders do well this year? I mean, not as well as the Broncs, and lord knows the Chargers are going to be hard to beat, but... I like the Raiders off season. I like Kiffin. I don't know how to deal with this. I could give you a list of my top NFL teams, 1-32, and the Raiders are supposed to be in the bottom 4. But they're not. I just... don't know how to be OK with this. I think I just like the really good games back again.

Well, I'm going to go rest my precious brain again. I wish you all well.